March 6, 2006

  • It's happened.  I failed.  I have to take the retake on Thursday.  I was so upset all day.  I was the second group to run and they failed 3 out of the 5 people.  I couldn't stop crying all day.  Now my eyes are puffy and I have a huge headache.


    As if things couldn't get MORE wrong, I couldn't rebook my American Air flight on Thursday afternoon after my second retake.  Whether I pass or not, I still need to get home.  So I booked on Continental nonstop.  American didn't have any availability until MONDAY!!!


    So that's all said and done.  Now we have 2 days of intense training.  Congrats to Jake and Ca for passing.  I cried each time I got news from each classmate.... feeling sorry for myself and wallowing in my own self pity.  I'll get over it by tomorrow...


    I need to pass and get the hell out of here.  I am embarassed, disappointed and very very angry with myself.  I made stupid mistakes and they didn't take NERVES into account.  I am not too fond of the evaluators since they don't know us and they only judge us by what they see for 40 minutes running the problem.  Frankly, I don't find it a very fair way of evaluating us but what can *I* do about it... .I'm just a peon and THEY are the government.


    I've never failed at something before and this won't be the first.  But they won't get the best of me!!!